Kurt is a a asshole, a self proclaimed one to boot.

He has carved himself into where he sits now. Good job! Your hard work has paid off!!!

I often wonder why companies hire Kurt Lockwood? There is a plethora of good male talent out there, tested, tried and true. Branch out people.

Drugs, and habit. Those twin evils must be the answer.

I have been the PA/BTS on more sets of Kurt's than I can count, mostly w/o his knowledge, I use hats and cover up my tats and he has had no clue. On a recent Barely Legal set he goes ballistic, YOU!!! He starts spitting.

Yeah me, I dropped it long time ago dude, he is spitting something or other incoherent and I basically I say I should have let him know I let go of the DRAMA. I dropped it all a LONG time ago. Zen. He is speechless and his eyes watering and twitching.

Context: I covered his ass when someone unexpected came in on set that wasn't supposed to be there/disturbance. etc.I made sure he was OK, I console female talent the show goes ON. Its my job. Not glorious but hey, I do it.

Fast forward. Last week, he gets in my face while I am carrying heavy sandbags C-stands what nots as a PA (not a good idea SKURT) up may flights of stairs.

Why don't you fluff/suck my cock he says. Cockblocking on the stairs with the giggly make-up artist by your side. SMOOTH.

No.

Why? Test not good?

No I have a new test, good, just worked few days ago, no thanks. IGNORE ^3

( AM I THE ONLY porn chick that has never tested POSITIVE for NADA?? Shit.)

Then I am in the room establishing the set, firing up BTS, he starts complaining I smell. Farted? No man, its the fucking sheets the production team NEVER washes from VOMIT and SHIT. I keept quiet and say nada.

He keeps blabbing on. Dude after 18 hrs shooting camera I stink, sure whatever, he is yelling, says something about me posting something on XPT...So I POINT BLANK tell the director he can cut me a check right then and there if he doesn't take care of the crew with this asshole in my FACE, and I walk, because when I get the typical dumb look that is getting paid quadruple what I am getting on set. No breaks, 5 min for lunch after 18 hrs, and you don't show respect as a director to your crew??

Kurt is his own PA, no BTS. Get your own water. I don't want to shoot your sniveling wet nose anyhow.

I never fucking complain on set. EVER.
If I do, its a big deal. Ask around.

I leave room, pack gear in truck, stay still bitter end, Kurt yells shit I cannot hear I ignore and BEHOLD!!!! YO my check clears. Therefore venting.

I already gave notice, so I could care less. I shoot good camera but not for putting up with prima donna twinks.

Female talent asks what happened and I tell her male talent, she says boys are fucking stupid, and I agree. Makeup artist asks if everything is cool, and I say no, I hate cokeheads. Note the plural.

Having talent on set as a PA or BTS is invaluable on set. The ladies love it, they know we have been there and know what they need, guys appreciate the water and quick towel down, thumbs up, and critical lube off camera angle. I don't do it for the pay, I do it because I know how important it is to have a helping hand that is considerate.

Unlike SOME people on set, I don't fucking snort coke, nor do I need to KOW TOW to self proclaimed talent assholes. I get my head straight and on the ball when I shoot a scene as talen. Nor do I beg directors for gigs like some male talent. Especially director's that don't back their crew up. I know where I stand. And I know where they sit in the ranks. Bottom rung. One good scene for the upcoming J-Ho, and trust me Kurt, it wasn't yours, but maybe you heard it before your scene and that is why you were on your coked rampage.

Subsequent to Gram's incident I asked around...basically nobody is confrontational and with money at stake they want the scene to go on. Pathetic. Nobody says JACK because they give a shit about what stupid porno people THINK. The sheep following sheep.

After 13 years martial arts I don't push people around, I break bones. I don't miss. I may ask which finger or bone is NOT essential. That is all. I give a chocie.

But I also walk away, because Kurt isn't worth the drama. I already have a job to do at hand, and if he is blocking me with his physical body while I am doing it...Bad move bra'.

If Kurt keeps steppping on the worng toes he has no choice. Europe.

Honestly I don't care dude, so have a good flight. One company in pornoland that I won't work for because they are hypocrite pussies, and one porn talent that can wipe his own ass.