It is all pretty simple....this dude realizes that he has essentially painted himself into a corner in terms of life and career. Deep inside, where he still has a spark of a conscience, he realizes he has sold his soul for this junk-food version of "Stardom".

It reminds me of Harry Angel/Jonathan Liebling from the movie "Angel Heart" (and the book the movie was based upon, Falling Angel by William Hjortsberg.) Harry Angel sold his soul to satan for a few years of stardom, so he could be a crooner and get any chick he wanted to fuck him. He was a purely selfish, selfabsorbed evil person. After about a year though of enjoying his "Stardom" it sinks in to Harry that "Oh shit....what have I done? This (sticking his penis in any chick he wants) isnt worth suffering in Hell for all eternity. He wigs out and tries to backtrack and "reinvent" himself and justify what he is doing.

Kurt essentially followed a similar path, he is now stuck, painted into a corner, and no doubt sees the Porn Industry for what it really is...so sayeth da burglar. :bananalisabonet: