04 / 23 / 2004
Hey Disciples,

I'm trying to get more content up for you guys but with tax season just passing and the before mentioned HIV scare out there I haven't worked much lately. Truthfully I don't want to work much. Not only have people seen my insides one too many times I want to give the website a fresh angle. I want this to be a site where people who lust like I do get a fill of what I do away from the industry. The real sex that isn't accompanied by a paycheck. I want to interact with you guys and make you feel what it's like not to be normal. I don't want to be like these girls who push their name because they look so bad doing it. Your someone for such a short time that you better be doing it your way! You'll be scooping your pride up out of a storm drain in no time sweetie. The majority of the world hates us and nothing will change that. I want people who walk, talk, and feel alike to recognize that. I want everyone else who walks out of order thrown off the team. I will make as many attempts to suck and fuck leaving the final product available just for your eyes. I've been playing poker and just trying to get better. Fucking bronchitis is brutal. I only worked once in the last two months so my worries were never directed at this ailment as anything more than a cold. It's kicking my ass! I will make a couple final attempts to clear this girl victimized by Darren James. I heard someone say she was the egg or use some reference like that. He said that Darren tested regularly. If you knew you did something risky in Brazil and feared the reaper than you'd get tested to elimate the guess work. I loved Darren from what I knew of him. Anal sex was one thing I knew of him so this hits my ass deep! He's not a fucking hero because he tested. She had a rash huh? She asked about Syphilis huh? Those are definatly signs that you have the HIV. She had an Eliza when she worked. The Eliza was the standard for this business when I got started. It works fine but a more advanced PCR DNA became the norm. The Eliza showed Tricia as pos. It worked FINE! We worked with the Eliza and had ONE formidable outbreak. Which escalated to murder from MARC! Now the suckasses come out to kick a woman that wouldn't have dated them any day of the week. She stands for all the pornstars in the business who are desired but not attained. Easy targets for the lonely and hateful. Less than a 1% chance of a man getting it from a woman you morons. This isn't a porn stars opinion it's a medical fact. I knew this would bring the adult industry to it's knees but to see the people folding in fear behind it makes me sick. A man with the dominate looks and talent. Julian has vowed I believe to distance himself from hardcore and go condom only. Look at the fucking std rate amongst SQUARES in this world. Sooner or later the condom will come off and a bug in some form will alert you of your partners deepest secrets & past. This has turned into an attack on hardcore girls and the hardcore product in the business. This right now will seperate the have and the have nots. You will see the people who are in it for the fame/ money run and hide behind the condom. You'll see the few like me who got into this business to fuck use the condom for a balloon. I will not start to use condoms under any threat. I'm an adult performer and have always understood the threat. The threat is real and so am I! You'll see the girls who did anal for the paycheck run and hide under the plastic. Us Disciples will protest the use of them in the realistic idea that proclaims-If you want to see a condom fuck your wife after a business trip. One where both of you have no idea where the other one was. We have a fucking piece of paper that gives us the most accurate account of our partners health at the time of testing. We have to be able to trust our partners best judgement. Guys like Kirk Lockwood, Mr. Marcus, and men alike that I appreciate in this business will be there when this is all over. If they use condoms I won't work with them. No matter how much I need it right now. I will be an outlaw against reform. Reform right now says we did something wrong and things need to change. FUCK U-Darren god save his pain brought this to us in my opinion. There were steps to be taken for Darren to be the only victim and instead it's now treated as an epidemic. This isn't her fault. Let my finger stick out the farthest if you won't do it. It's my MIDDLE finger and I say fuck you and fear. We all make our own mistakes. She had to know the risk. You guys don't see how double anal opened up a higher risk for her ability to catch it? Other girls dodged the bullet by not being torn (ASSHOLE) to hell leaving the door to infection wide open. I look at John and Tricia and see survivors. Where's her support? What can we do to help her survive. For me it's relentless nail driving ass fucking. I want her to know we don't do this because some FAGGOT pushes a second guy into the scene. We're supposed to love this job. Not die doing it!



J fucking D



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