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I'm actually confused... so you made it clear that you've lied about being a 'clean/sober' person. In some ways I find it hard to believe you really even had much of a severe addiction and perhaps more so needed to just get away and go back home to regain your sanity. But who knows, I can be rather stupid and naive, obviously.



We hid it well sometimes Gen... not so much others.
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But I do recall you saying that you, if I remember correctly, finished high school early but never went for college education. And I remember having a discussion, to which I vaguely remember (bad memory *sigh*) you saying things in such fashion that lead me to believe that you didn't see much importance or need for college education. Which is totally fine. Whatever.



I said shit like that based on bad advice i had received from a former person in the biz... lets call him H.S.

Yes, i did graduate high school early, and yes, i did get my B.A.


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But now in another thread just recently, I see you saying you have a B.A.? New things just keep popping up and I'm just wondering if all that I've learned of you and Kei in the past... were they all merely stories? Was it amusing to you guys to take advantage of someone who opened up enough to listen and learn what others had to say, perhaps even trust, share and .. well you get the picture.



Gen, it has nothing to do with you personally... i mean that from the bottom of my heart. We believed in "Living the Gimmick" and didn't have it any other way with pretty much anyone... very few people knew the real US.

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From my end it just seems like you guys have been just doing some major soul searching, trying to find what you really are, what you really want and things of that sort. Not so much really trying to beat an addiction. At least speaking of the majority of it all.



Think of it more as a combination of the two things.... yes we had to beat an addiction, and that process led to some major soul searching.

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So what issss the real story of you & you and kei. (I don't feel respectful enough calling her Kei but then again I dont want to use a real name when I'm not sure it's allowed, so please tell me what name I should use LOL)



Just call her "S", it is a sutible pseudonym on all ends now. As far as the real story.... We have known each other since high school when we starred in a play of Pink Floyd's The Wall together...that much is true. We got together 4 yrs alter when we met up at a Frisbee game I was playing with some friends in the parking lot of a comic book store i worked at while going to school, though i no longer worked their and instead was working for a porn store. She moved in with me after our 2nd date.... 3 yrs later we on a whim one day decided we wanted to visit LA and do porn... and a week after being in LA, we decided we were staying. There is so much intertwined between that if you want the full scoop you will get it some time after we get back... as i don't want to type it all out right now.
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Also, might I edit to add also that I very clearly remember more than once you guys explaining to me that upon entering the biz you have felt you had to dress ordinary to fit into the porno pool so you can shoot as often and become looked upon and accepted in the biz like any other performer versus trying to get into the biz dressed goth-like (dark clothing 'n such) and do remember you saying that the whole (can't remember the term) but i'll use 'underground' look was more you and it felt good to be able to dress and look how you've always wanted and not having to conform for others just to be accepted.

Now in another thread you've basically said the samething but vice versa.



When i was younger and i did sort of dress the "goth" part... and yes i listen to odd music, but if anything i was always more of a raver than anything... hell listen to the music i usually prefer... its Hard Trance. I do NOT like to do the whole "goth look" think and haven't since i was about 17... if you look at me when I first came in i looked very normal. Once again... it was about fueling the characters, and living the gimmick.
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Rob... I know I'm not this looney, while I can't quote you word for word, I do know what I heard by what was told. Right?



You did, but unfortunately you still only got to know what were essentially characters playing a part. I mean like i said.. right down to me and S's "Break Up".. it was all gimmick...

Now though i realize that does more damage than it helps.

So i guess you can call me "No Gimmicks Needed" Rob Longshot.
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