I'm actually confused... so you made it clear that you've lied about being a 'clean/sober' person. In some ways I find it hard to believe you really even had much of a severe addiction and perhaps more so needed to just get away and go back home to regain your sanity. But who knows, I can be rather stupid and naive, obviously.

But I do recall you saying that you, if I remember correctly, finished high school early but never went for college education. And I remember having a discussion, to which I vaguely remember (bad memory *sigh*) you saying things in such fashion that lead me to believe that you didn't see much importance or need for college education. Which is totally fine. Whatever.

But now in another thread just recently, I see you saying you have a B.A.? New things just keep popping up and I'm just wondering if all that I've learned of you and Kei in the past... were they all merely stories? Was it amusing to you guys to take advantage of someone who opened up enough to listen and learn what others had to say, perhaps even trust, share and .. well you get the picture.

From my end it just seems like you guys have been just doing some major soul searching, trying to find what you really are, what you really want and things of that sort. Not so much really trying to beat an addiction. At least speaking of the majority of it all.

So what issss the real story of you & you and kei. (I don't feel respectful enough calling her Kei but then again I dont want to use a real name when I'm not sure it's allowed, so please tell me what name I should use LOL)

Also, might I edit to add also that I very clearly remember more than once you guys explaining to me that upon entering the biz you have felt you had to dress ordinary to fit into the porno pool so you can shoot as often and become looked upon and accepted in the biz like any other performer versus trying to get into the biz dressed goth-like (dark clothing 'n such) and do remember you saying that the whole (can't remember the term) but i'll use 'underground' look was more you and it felt good to be able to dress and look how you've always wanted and not having to conform for others just to be accepted.

Now in another thread you've basically said the samething but vice versa.

Rob... I know I'm not this looney, while I can't quote you word for word, I do know what I heard by what was told. Right?