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You probably are just noticing it more now that you are now less naive then you were then.

It just happens that a percentage of people in porn are going to use drugs... and guess what... it is like that in the normal world at well. I mean is the mall going to hell because the kids from Foot Locker were smoking a blunt behind the building. Is Disney going to hell because the cast members get wasted on a nightly basis.

Do i think it is a good thing, no. But, i cannot be judgmental as I have dealt with my own drug issues.

As far as 18yr olds representing the industry on TV.... that sounds like sour grapes from 6yrs of being unrecognized. Sorry, i don't say it being mean, i am just saying how that statement comes off.

You may not care about the biz, but well... I do. You say helping out is a waste of time... well you have biotech training supposedly... why don't you go down and volunteer at AIM, not paid but volunteer, maybe reduce their overhead.

It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.

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No Rob, while the drugs may have always been there, people are more free with it and do it in the open in front of others and offer like its no big deal, that's the difference. In high school and some parts of college I was never offered or see that kind of act in the work place in retail. Of course not cuz they'd be taking a chance of getting fired. I never saw that at the Medical Billing offic e I worked at nor the Lab. People have no shame in the biz because they have no job to lose and that's what I find is disrespectful but really that's not the main issue. It's how our fellow co-workers today treat each other and take care of themselves... hygiene, you know showers, not working when having a yeast infection, things of that sort. It's certainly not the same years ago.

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Wow, you must forget about the era in which this industry was forged... I mean most of the early business deals went down around a table covered in blow. Saying people didn't do it in the open before is nothing short of fucking hilarity. And yes... it happens in the rest of the world too... I cannot recall a moment, a job or a school i went to in my life where drugs were not a common topic of conversation and or use. You must have really had a sheltered life.

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My years of being unrecognized isn't so extreme as you say. Perhaps I've been announced as a nominee of unsung siren a few times but really even if I did win something it says nothing about who i really am so it doesn't really matter. I can't imagine you not agreeing that it's a joke to have a 18 yr old of all people to go on national television to represent this industry. I certainly wouldn't take the offer if it was there. It has nothing to do with being under-rated at all.

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I do not agree that having an 18yr old represent the industry is a joke. Age means little if there is intelligence and experience to back it up. Each individual develops at different rates and leads different lives, I have no problem with it what so ever. I would rather have her than many others older than her. If you wouldn't take the offer, then don't complain about it.

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And if I may recall Rob, you did have quite the collection of profound things to say about the industry when you had left for Florida and all. They weren't positive ones either. And to blame that on your dependency of whatever it may be sounds like an excuse to me. I honestly believe there is more to it, whatever it may be. Perhaps dependency is part of it but not the whole thing. So I'm not the only one. I know that much.

It's past my bed time. Good night.

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Your right, i did say some shit.... but it was not directed at the industry it was about a few small things, compounded by my chemical issues and my anger at the douchebag i worked for who had nothing but negativity spouting out constantly and had begun to wear off on me.

heres a little secret though... a lot of the shit i said... was a work.

See, pretty much anything i said on here or to luke ford was in character and was nothing but having a little fun. It all had to do with killing off the characters of Rob Longshot and Keiko, I was going to come back as Rob Rocket... Mind you in my mind at that moment it was funny.. but my mind wasn't exactly clear. I was pretty much fucked up 24/7 at that point in time... and had been for a while. You know when you called me to help you kick out lain... we had just finished smoking a bowl! And K was fried on painkillers for quite a while there...

But, back then... i hid it, i had a fake image where i claimed i didn't do that stuff. Guess what... the squeakiest wheel sometimes is the one who is the most fucked up.
Shit happens, I moved on, i got clean(er) and got my shit together.

Like i say, i LOVE this industry and will always be its biggest cheerleader. I may not agree with all of its members all of the time, but it's like a big dysfunctional family. Even after everything i can find nice things to say about Jeff and Tony. I can learn and grow by accepting my faults and flaws and fixing them. Arguments, discussions and even taking the piss out of someone can sometimes have a great effect because in the end it still causes communication. Communication makes it possible for us all to learn. If we all agree all of the time then we will never grow and this industry WILL die.

and I for one would not want to see that happen... the one addiction I WILL NOT break is my sex addiction, and porn from both a viewing and performing perspective is an important part of that.