jesus i really messed up. we haven't even did it since i got rough with her that time. my girlfriend and i, that is. haven't had sex, that is. it was like a month ago. i think my best move would be to try to talk to her about it, but what i'm supposed to say? sorry i spit in your face during sex? that shit's just gonna lead to a conversation i don't want to have. even when we do do it again it isn't gonna be the same. she's gonna be on guard. i wish she was more like regular woman who will let you put them in full nelsons and shit while you fuck them in the butt.

i thought i had a chance tonight because we watched jezebel on tmc and bette davis usually puts her in the mood to fuck. dang.

porn makers please put out even more rough oral sex movies. fast. that is, please put out oral sex movies that are even more rough. use women who are obliging. women who love their boyfriends. things are not looking up.