Being hoarse is a huge familiarity. I think it's a natural reaction to what the body is dealing with combined with physical and emotional stress. I dont know. But there are a few people who have the same cancer as I do and we all have the same emotional reactions to it towards other people.

Normally I'm extremely laid back and listen a lot... intead I can be very violent and lash out with my moods. It scares me LOL. Ive had many desires to tell anyone who has done wrong to me out of selfishness to fuck off and die even to family. And I know truly I would never say something like that.

Sometimes to be able to run away without caring is a great feeling but in reality would never solve a thing. Due to prolonged cancer and treatments (not all have this) but im missing sufficient amounts of a certain chemical that sets off my central nervous system, it also causes me to get dizzy and lose my balance. its bizarre and thats part of the reason why ive been an emotional roller coaster.

add me to the rest of the loopy pile haha.. inside edition of gen padova, unleashed.