i do not mean to imply that i feel great empathy for the actual performers, (though i sometimes do, when the onscreen situation is particularly nightmarish). i do not blame myself for whatever i might imagine these performers personal situations could be. the guilt is entirely related to me myself and i. why do i need to see these things? what's my problem? of course, your point is an interesting issue, too. it's all a rich tapestry. but right now i only care about my own self .