Im a bad person, I mock the dreams and hopes of innocent, once naive young girls who made a little mistake when they were young by having sex on film with strangers but are trying to do right as they grow, but I never allow them that chance, my cynical threads about certain girls have derailed the dreams of at least 2 that i know of, for that I can't live with myself, ive also crossed many a line, ive also brought hurt to the innocent wallice and rayne families, to those people I can never put into words just how sorry I am, I just hope the fact my heart will beat no more will allow you to pick up the pieces to your lives and allow you to live on as pain free as humanly possible. To gen padova, Ive said some truly horrible things to you, with maybe only 40% being true, and jrv, the attacks ive made against your mother have made me sick to my stomach, I was wrong to do that, im sure shes a very nice lady with good morals and fine fibre. Da burg, maybe you have had the worst, although most of my attacks have been at your personality there have been a few to do with you lack of leg muscles and weaker leg bones and perhaps even a crooked spine, thats a personal joke between you and god and I have no right to step into that.


Ive given this a lot of though and consulted with a few close friends and some not so close friends and they agreed that the best and most honest way to show just how sorry I am is to kill myself. I will be hanging myself at midday monday, i have a few things i need to sort out before then so I don't leave my young family in the crapper ala john doe as im not lucky enough to have a good friend like randy spears to help pick up the pieces once im gone. I wish you all the best love monkey



Julian John Pieterson aka smelly monkey 1977-2006