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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

GOD IS GOOD! AMEN,AMEN!
Current mood: GRATEFUL!

God is so awesome.

Three months ago I was going through some hard stuff. I was just being a witch. I hated myself and I was really starting to dislike God. I was thinking God was a mean God. I thought He was cruel to me and always angry with me. I thought God had turned His back on me. But really it was me who turned my back on God. I was always sad and crying and very angry. I was always doing something wrong and screwing things up. All my anger was towards God. I thought He was supposed to just say a magic word and everything would just be dandy. But He didn't and so I would become furious with God. After I would cool off I would be so mad with myself for being mad with God. My suffering was my own fault. God was right there, patiently waiting for me. I never looked to Him.
I had a lot of pride.

My attitude toward's my parent's was horrible. I was alway's getting into fights with my mom. Screaming and yelling at her. Finally my parent's decided we both needed a break from each other. So I stayed with a family friend for a little bit.

How good God can be even if you're horrible!
But even during my time of sadness and lonliness, God still provided for me! Can you believe it? God provided for someone who was angry with Him! Yup God is awesome. God sent me some amazing people in my life and friends that would be good for me and He restored my relationship with my parents. We get along better than ever!

God has been so faithful to me. After a while of not being able to take it on my own anymore I finally put my pride down and asked God to come back into my heart and my life. Also my mom shared with me an awesome bible verse.
James 1:2-4 "Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything."

Yeah, I had heard that bible verse many times before in my life, but never did I really understand it and realize it's importance. After reading that bible verse over and over, I realized that I had needed to put that verse into practice. I needed to give honor and praise to God no matter what circumstance I was in. I needed to put my trust in Him, not myself!

Now two months later, my life has been a JOY! Yeah sure, I still get those downs but it's not as bad as it was before. God has done so much for me these past months. I just recently took my GED test and thought I wasn't going to pass the math part and then would end up having to retake it. But God was faithful and came through. I just recieved my scores not too long ago and I passed! EVERYTHING! Of course I start bawling my face off because God so good. I am currently enrolled in a bible school now!
Iam nothing, He is ALL!

Also God provided me with an awesome job! I am now an employee at the Barnes&Noble cafe! The best part is I was only ten minutes into my interview when the manager hired me! Can you believe it? Once again God came through.

God has overflowed my heart with Joy and I am happier more than ever! Honestly. I have never been so thankful. God is amazing. God saved a "wretch" like me!

All of this because I started to put God's word into practice and put my faith in Him. I learned that through all your hard times you must count it joy and trust God. Yeah I know, easier said than done! Believe me, I KNOW! But this bible verse really got me through, along with many others of course. But this verse was THEE ONE!

The reason why I wrote this blog was because I wanted EVERYONE to KNOW how AWESOME God is. And that God NEVER turns His back on you! He is right there! Seek and you will find. Knock and He will answer! He's just right outside your door!

Now time for the credits!

Thank you to my mom and dad. You guys are amazing! Thank you for not giving up on me and supporting me in everything I do! I love you guys very much. Im honored to call you my parents!

The Kretsinger Family: You guys are awesome! Thank you all for being there for me. Thank you for always praying with me and for me. I love you all too! Iam so blessed to have you guys in my life!

And to all my friends: You guys are such a blessing to me! I love you all and thank you all for being the friends that you are!

And last but NOT LEAST, Jesus!: You are absolutely amazing. Thank you for ALWAYS loving me and NEVER giving up on me. You are and will always be the lover of my soul. Thank you for always pulling through even when I don't deserve it, which is ALL THE TIME! I LOVE YOU!

One more thing.

I also thank God for all the hard times. Without them I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't be able to have the compassion of Christ on others who have gone through hard times. If God said I could back in time and redue everything I'd say, "PSHH! No way Jose!"

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This here forum doesn't reproduce all the random font changes. It's probably just a teen Myspace thing, but the cumulative effect makes her seem even crazier than her Mom.