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#195648 - 10/06/06 08:06 PM
Chrissy Moran: My Life,My Love,Peoples Happy Hands
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Porn Jesus
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Although da burg in length this is pretty fucked up , and i feel bad for laughing at some points but I also have the song "the only one that could ever reach me was the daughter of an alcoholic preacher man" running through my head, so I can't feel that bad  . I liked when her father called her at 17 and asked if she was still a virgin or a whore like her mother  .  Who am I? Well, first of all my real name is Christina not Crissy and my last name is not Moran. I grew up in Jacksonville, FL. Most of my life has been a constant search for happiness and love. I remember the happiest years. My earliest happy memories were between the ages of 4 - 11. I was raised in a peaceful christian home. My parents loved each other. We would go to church every time the doors were open. When we weren't in church we would talk about God and pray. My dad was a pastor in a church when I was younger but was always active in church in some capacity. My mom sang on the choir. She loved to sing and was always singing every where she went. She would cook, clean, and do most everything while singing praises to God. My daddy was gentle and loving. I have a younger brother who is two years younger than me. He was my best friend. My most favorite memory is sitting on my daddys lap with my head on his chest and hearing his heartbeat and listening to him read the bible to me. It always gave me so much comfort. He would tell me that he was my "daddy" but God was my "father". I fell asleep peacefully many times in his lap while he would rock me. We were so financially poor and I never even knew it. I was saved when I was just 11 years old. I lived for God and loved him with all my heart! When I was about 12 years old things began to change drastically in my life. My dad always would talk to me about God and tell me I was a virgin of Israel and to stay that way until I was married. We moved a few times and my dad began to let different people live in our home. We had a crippled man living with us at one point and then another time my dads work buddy and his son who was my age. While they lived with us my dad began to change. I still remember the first time I saw a beer in his hand. My heart felt like it stopped. His work friend drank heavily and soon they became drinking buddies. Then his drinking buddies just started coming out of the woodwork and he stopped going to church with us. He still preached and when he would get drunk he would feel the need to tell all his buddies how I was a virgin of Israel and if any man every touched me he would kill them. I would get so embarrassed and so would my mom. I could always sense men lusting after me even at a young age. I felt many of his friends looked at me with lust even though I was a little girl. When I would be alone with his friends they would make weird remarks about how pretty I was and it gave me the creeps. My dads buddies son was the 4th person to molest me. This is something I just dealt with because I saw the way the little boys father beat him and I was scared he would kill him. He always had bruises and was way knowlegable about sex and I could tell by the things he would do to me. I would fight him kicking and screaming and my little brother would always try to jump him when he could. I would feel so dirty but a couple of people had already molested me in my life. I was afraid also because my dad always said he would kill anyone who would touch me. Eventually they moved out. My dad had become an alcoholic. My mom still took us to church and we just began being with her more and my dad was left out of the equation. His thinking became irrational. My mom was fearful of him and so were my brother and I. He would go out to bars and come home with gun shots, broken knuckles, and with bruises and blood on him. He would say he was preaching the word and someone didn't like it. He started being very mean to my mom. One time he flipped over our dinner table because she cooked something in the microwave and he expected everything to be fresh and homemade. He started using his fists to break car windshields, our french doors, and anything else that was around when he would become enraged. He started giving us spankings more often but a lot of times my mom would intervene and say she would do it because she feared he was too angry and would hurt us. He still preached the word all the while. One day close to Christmas my mom and dad had went to his work Christmas party. We stayed home alone and when they got home they were fighting. My brother and I were in our bedroom crying as we heard my parents arguing. My dad ripped my moms beautiful red satin dress off of her and I heard things being thrown in the other room. My dad was calling my mom a whore and telling her as she ran out the front door if she took us away from him he would kill her. Often when they would fight she would take me and my brother with her over to my grandmas house. She left us there this time. We were scared wondering what would happen next. My dad gave us both a trash bag and told us to pack up some of our things and throw the bags into the back of the truck. He then drove away with us to another city close to Orlando. We weren't allowed to call our mom for a few days. When we finally could we weren't allowed to tell her where we were. After a couple of weeks he moved us into a half trailer/ half house on a dirt road. My dad would cry the most saddest cries I have ever heard anyone cry over my mom. He would tell us how much he loved her and how heartbroken he was. My mom started coming out to visit us on the weekends and holidays. He would beg her to stay and be a family with us. Other times he would be a raging lunatic and getting drunk and scaring all of us. He could change so quickly and we never knew how he would act at any given time or situtation. My moms visits began to slow down. I was about 13 and having a hard time in school. I went from being a straight A student to now making one or 2 C's. I was now the woman of the house (as my dad called me). I had to make his lunches, cook dinner, clean, grocery shop, do laundry at the laundry mat, and take care of my dad. He would pass out all the time. He would preach to us all the time but even though he preached God's word it was coming out of the mouth of a drunken man. My dad and I would stay up for hours debating the word of God. He would come home from the bars beat up, pass out in his truck or in the front yard, or do embarrassing things like climb the tree in our front yard and sing as loud as he could "Glory, glory hallelejah!". We were so poor that the church would donate us food and gifts on holidays. He was drinking all our money away. Not only was I dealing with this but kids at school were picking on me. They said I was the ugliest girl in the school and would make fun of my lips, nose, eyes, and my clothes. Kids would even try to fight me but I was so shy and unconfrontational that I would try to walk away. I did get in a couple of fights with boys in my neighborhood and of course I would kick their butts! I had so much inside I was holding in!! I was a very sad and depressed little girl and totally confused about God but I still have faith he was there and things would get better. One day my mom announced that she was getting remarried. My dad flew into a rage and told my mom and soon to be stepdad he would kill them both. He cried all the time still and prayed with us that our mommy would come home and be the kind of woman God wanted her to be. I didn't blame her myself. I decided to go live with my mom and my brother told me he would stay and take care of daddy. I told my dad and he cried and asked me what was he going to do without me he said first your mom leaves me and now you are. I told him that I am becoming a woman and I need my mom. I was strong and made the move. When I first moved in I thought I was rich! I had never been in as nice of a house as my stepdads! He was a policeman and of course wasn't rich but I didn't know better. I thought all of my dreams of having a normal life were going to come true! I got to buy pretty clothes for once in my life and start wearing makeup. I started going to high school and all of a sudden people weren't picking on me anymore. I was actually nominated in my home room for Homecoming Princess my first year in high school. I didn't make it past the nomination in my homeroom but I was very shocked. I figured it was the pretty clothes and makeup because I was still the same girl on the inside. (Til this day I have a fear of being seen without my makeup and am very insecure!) My home life was not very good though. My mom was very insecure herself and devoted every minute of her time to my stepdad. I used to hug and kiss her but my stepdad told me I was getting too old for that. They would go in their bedroom and lock their door at night and I was not allowed to knock on the door at that point for any reason. My stepdad would tell me I acted like "trailer trash" like my dad and make fun of me for not liking some of the meals he cooked because I was used to "poor peoples food". I had bad posture and no real table manners. My mom would just sit quietly as he ridiculed me. A few times she would defend me but he would say something to her and she would back down again. I started to become rebellious and even more depressed. There were times I would say mean things back to him and cry and walk away. I had lost respect for either of them. I would try to stay with girl friends from school and get close to their mothers but it wasn't the same. High school life was weird for me. I was friends with mostly everyone but went through friends in phases. I felt no one was really accepting of me. My grades plummeted big time and from 9th grade - 11th grade I barely made it through. I made mostly F's. I would come home from school every day and listen to music, cry, and write my feelings. I expressed myself through poetry which I shared with my friends at school and various letters I would write and not show anyone. I was in a very dark place. I liked a few boys at school but they barely noticed me. The ones who did would spend time with me and we wouldn't have intercourse but still mess around and they would tell everyone they slept with me. My dad kept calling me and aksing me if I was still a virgin or if I had become a whore like my mom and my mom just told me to tell her when I had sex so she would put me on birth control. I was so confused. Both boys and girls had molested me all my life and now I was starting to enjoy it. I started to feel like the boys liked me because I was pretty now and maybe they would love me. I lost my virginity at the age of 17 to a much older man. I felt so much guilt but then I was a little excited about it at the same time like I was getting back at my parents. I was also feeling like I was loved now. God was still in my heart but I started to push him away. I dated the guy I lost my virginity to for about a year and then dated a new guy. This guy would come over and watch TV with me at my parents house but most of the time my parents would tell me to have him come and get me and hang out at his house. This boyfriend was the one I wanted to marry. I always thought about what it would be like to have his baby and have a family of my very own. I thought that if I had a baby I would have someone who would always love me no matter what! One morning as I was getting ready school I got sick. I didn't think much of it until it happened more often. I had my boyfriend bring over a pregnancy test and sure enough I was pregnant. I was so excited that I was going to get married and have a baby! I was in 11th grade and it was almost summer. A couple days after we found out my stepdad asked me if I was because he saw me run to the bathroom and get sick. I told him I was and he told my mom. They asked me if my boyfriend was going to marry me and take care of me and I told him yes that was the plan. A few days later my boyfriend said he changed his mind. My mom told me I had to have an abortion. I was mortified! This was my baby, my one true love! They said I needed to finish up summer school for 11th grade and my senior year and since my boyfriend wasn't going to be able to support me that was all I could do. I told them I didn't know how I was going to take care of my baby but that I would somehow and that atleast I could give my baby the one thing they never gave me and that was LOVE! I was so rebellious and hurt. A week later my boyfriend took me to the abortion clinic with the money my mom gave him for the abortion. I went through the counseling and everything and I cried the whole time. When it came time to do the sonogram they asked me if I would like to see it. I said yes. I looked and they pointed to the heart and said see this is the heartbeat. I saw this tiny little thing beating and I felt the life inside of me. I realized it was really there now. My very own baby! I began to cry hysterically and told them I couldn't do it and they escorted me out to my boyfriend and told him the news. He looked mad and drove me home. When we walked in the door my mom asked me how I was feeling. I just ran into the bathroom crying and she asked my boyfriend if I did it and he said no. When I came out she confronted me about it and I told her how I felt. She took me back herself a few days later and made sure I did it. I wasn't knocked out during the procedure because I didn't want to cost my mom any extra money. I was awake listening to the machine suck the life out of me. I was screaming and crying and three people were holding me down telling me to be still or I would damage something and not be able to have kids in my future. Kids at school found out about it that summer in summer school because I confided in a couple of my close friends. No one looked at me again the same way. My senior year I stopped being friends with everyone and concentrated on school In order to walk with my class I had to make almost all straight A's, take no electives, and go to night school The dean didn't think I could do it but I did and I walked with my class. SO... this is how it all began... the childhood of a victim of abuse and pornstar who is broken and still searching for true love. P.S. Don't feel sad for me for going through this. I know there is a reason and I think it is to help others. God allowed me to go through this to strengthen me. There is much more to share and I will when God tells me it is time.
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#195650 - 10/07/06 12:22 AM
Re: Chrissy Moran: My Life,My Love,Peoples Happy Hands
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Porn Jesus
Registered: 03/22/06
Posts: 6557
Loc: 2004 - the glory days
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Crissy Moran?Who?
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#195652 - 10/07/06 12:50 AM
Re: Chrissy Moran: My Life,My Love,Peoples Happy Hands
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#195653 - 10/07/06 02:45 AM
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AC Cream Wannabe
Registered: 07/06/05
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i wish her dad would of let me stay at her house- I would of bought him beer
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#195654 - 10/07/06 03:45 AM
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Kurt Lackwood's Fluffer
Registered: 10/09/04
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If you grew up in an abusive household, or know someone who did, you can certainly identify with her pain. I'll admit that my eyes watered a little bit while I read that.
But at the same time, Porn wouldn't exist without girls like this. And I'm sure there are porn chicks with MUCH more traumatic childhoods.
(Apologies in advance for Burg-style post.)
There are also porn chicks with normal parents who just don't understand where they went wrong, and chicks who had just as traumatic childhoods that didn't enter the sex industry. I don't disagree with the premise that porn is harmful to the performers and that helping them get out is a good thing, but something smells iffy about this Shelley Lubben chick and her "ministry". She ridiculously simplifies things: No girl ever enjoyed shooting a porn scene; all of them come from fucked-up backgrounds. Blanket denial of the attractions of the industry is only going to speak to those who are already thoroughly sick of it. If she thought honestly about the things that lured her into the industry in the first place - and why they are ultimately illusive - she might reach a lot more people, but when you're seeking to claim victim status, it's just too convenient to portray it as preying on the vulnerable. Better just to ignore the hard question of why so many girls flock to the industry to sell themselves so cheap.
There are blatant contradictions in some of the things she says. Being kicked out at 18 is one of her excuses for the path she took, but on the same blog you can read her parents' account and it's evident that she was already on a seriously wayward path. In fact that was why she was kicked out, they didn't know what to do with her and were protecting the family. She fills out her little "porn stars speak out" dossier by quoting several performers who are still in the industry completely out of context.
Why does it take a Pagan like myself to see that these supposedly devout Christians have the whole forgiveness thing backwards? An excuse is not required; abdicating responsibilty for your own actions is not the route to salvation. Rather, you are supposed to recognise your own sins and genuinely repent of them. Also, true Christian Charity is supposed to be directed on the basis of need, not conditional on people joining your church, but they're not reaching out to anyone without religious inclinations; you can't read far before they talk of how the Lord saved them and could save you too.
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#195655 - 10/07/06 08:47 PM
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Porn Jesus
Registered: 08/26/03
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I checked out this whore on iafd and I don't see any anal so I don't give a fuck about her or anything she says.
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#195656 - 10/07/06 10:12 PM
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Gay For Pay
Registered: 07/23/04
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Loc: United States
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Eitherway she is a smokin hot whore 
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#195657 - 10/07/06 10:50 PM
Re: Chrissy Moran: My Life,My Love,Peoples Happy Hands
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Porn Jesus
Registered: 01/25/04
Posts: 8662
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G-d is probably telling you to get a job, suck it up and use some of that porn caysh (don't all the whores save their money?) to get some help for those lingering psychological side effects. The Monkey Cage is here to help.
I think there has to be a middle part in the road between full blown porn whore to devout born again christian, like an intense 2 week course at the monkey cage to help prepare them for a life of abstinence and clean living.
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If you grew up in an abusive household, or know someone who did, you can certainly identify with her pain. I'll admit that my eyes watered a little bit while I read that.
But at the same time, Porn wouldn't exist without girls like this. And I'm sure there are porn chicks with MUCH more traumatic childhoods.
She's a piece of ass for sure...
I agree that her upbringing sucked but on the flip side it did give us the phrase "virgin of Israel" which im going to try and find ways to use both here on the board and in real life.
I wonder which one of the 4 times she was molested she had to channel to get herself into character for this shoot. I find that picture disturbing but erotic in a fatal attraction kinda way.
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i wish her dad would of let me stay at her house- I would of bought him beer
Im sure he would've traded her Israeli virginity for a keg.
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Why does it take a Pagan like myself to see that these supposedly devout Christians have the whole forgiveness thing backwards? An excuse is not required; abdicating responsibilty for your own actions is not the route to salvation. Rather, you are supposed to recognise your own sins and genuinely repent of them. Also, true Christian Charity is supposed to be directed on the basis of need, not conditional on people joining your church, but they're not reaching out to anyone without religious inclinations; you can't read far before they talk of how the Lord saved them and could save you too.
Damn fucking straight, I have nothing to add because its all been said so i'll just give it the marlon brando 'bravo, bravo, youre a sweetheart, you know that?, love those magic words"
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Shelley Lubben
I noticed that jesus has her number 1 spot on her my space friends. Im not really going anywhere with this just interesting that a) jesus has a myspace account and b) he accepted her add request
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Eitherway she is a smokin hot whore
These comments are starting to work John, im starting to think you are straight, your plan to bury those gay rumors is working a treat.
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#195659 - 10/08/06 01:42 AM
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Bukkake Boy
Registered: 06/30/04
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I don't know how many serious porn degenerates who read Luke know/care about who Crissy Moran is or what she did in porn, since she only went BG in 4 or so scenes? If you are a part of that niche who gets into the glossy internet whores like Crissy, JennaZ, Rachael Aziani and Catalina Cruz she is probably better known.
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P.S. Don't feel sad for me for going through this.
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I know there is a reason and I think it is to help others. God allowed me to go through this to strengthen me.
G-d is probably telling you to get a job, suck it up and use some of that porn caysh (don't all the whores save their money?) to get some help for those lingering psychological side effects. The Monkey Cage is here to help.
I remember her from 1998 when I started out as an adult webmaster and she was only doing softcore stills. The modern day Crissy that everyone knows is very different from how she started out. I never thought she'd have hardcore sex on camera with a guy, but she did (it was a boyfriend of hers).
I have encountered her in person twice and she comes across as shy and timid. Her story sheds some light some on those particular characteristics of hers.
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#195660 - 10/08/06 07:17 AM
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Registered Sex Offender
Registered: 07/09/06
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Chrissy acne face whore is a hypocrit. I shot her back in 99 and she swore up and down that she would never do hardcore porn. At that time she was living with her webmaster/boyfriend in Tampa. Not less than a year later she was fucking on camera.
And this is a problem because? Do you feel that you were lied to? Are you angry because she wouldn't do hardcore for you? Are you angry because she wouldn't do you?
Get over it, dude. People (especially women) change their minds about things over time. She changed her mind about doing hardcore and my Mr. Happy is happier because she did.
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#195662 - 10/08/06 11:32 AM
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Registered: 10/21/05
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Comments like this
Crissy writes: "I want the world to see the ugly side of this business. It needs to be exposed."
disgusts me because she makes it sound like she was victimized. She chose to do hardcore porn and chose to do it with her boyfriend only. She chose to do drugs. No one slammed her face into a pile of coke. She did drugs before she even entered porn. So stop blaming porn for your hypocrisies.
It's not very often I find myself agreeing with mypornoreview, but he is bang on the money in this instance. 
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#195663 - 10/08/06 11:36 AM
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Porn Jesus
Registered: 04/17/04
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someone should infiltrate the whores for jesus myspace cabal and report back then we can figure out something divisive to go back with
gia? gen?
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#195664 - 10/08/06 11:39 AM
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Porn Jesus
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i mean, it's just an epiphanal, life-changing spiritual experience you have to fake-people seem to have these every 2 years or so in southern california when they find zen buddhism then switch to kaballah or something. it's like changing hair-styles out there, i'm sure it'd fly under the radar since these chicks will be on oprah talking about how the church tricked them into the fold then took away their ability to earn money and wanted them to raise kids and not do drugs. they're going to find out being responsible and sober and actually earning money is lame and totally-foreign so soon and be on those nyc hooker sites by 2008.
Edited by jamesn (10/08/06 11:40 AM)
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#195665 - 10/08/06 11:50 AM
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Porn Jesus
Registered: 04/17/04
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shelley lubben=tom cruise? score one for ivor.
"The ones who AREN’T addicted to ... anti-depressants"
uh, great move stigmatizing modern anti-depressants(do you know what an addictive compound is? to qualify, the dosage has to quickly escalate in relation to tolerance, anti-depressants DON'T)
great job hunnybunny, tell your converts jesus hates their mood-stabilizers, hates their lithium, hates their anti-psychotics, etc. i'm aware of what ptsd et al are, medication's a first-line treatment for most of the shit on the same dsm-axes.
congratulations on being wildly-irresponsible, i hope one of your converts quits her meds and kills herself because of your convictions.
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#195666 - 10/08/06 08:29 PM
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Kurt Lackwood's Fluffer
Registered: 10/09/04
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"The ones who AREN’T addicted to ... anti-depressants"
This is interesting because Shelley herself admits to being bi-polar and this attitude would seem to imply she's off her meds.
Anyway, I couldn't resist, here's the reply I just emailed to Luke:
Shelley,
Actually, I read both your blog and your site before I commented, they were the basis of my observations. You want an example of a porn chick who didn't have a bad background - how about you for starters? It was you I had in mind when I spoke of "normal parents who just don't understand where they went wrong". "Neglect"? Sorry I read the whole of your parents' account and I don't see it. Misguided perhaps, but not neglectful. You say you began having sex at (gasp) 16 years old, but also talk of having been "introduced to sexuality" at 9 by other kids. If this went beyond the typical "playing doctor" you'll have to explicate, otherwise it sounds like you're trying to cast normal sexual development as "sexual abuse". Your views are colored by an extreme religious perspective that (according to your site) even views mere masturbation as a problem to be tackled. Do balanced people care if guys whack off? Obviously no church sees mastubation as holy, but the sensible ones place it very low on the scale of things to be concerned about.
It's ironic that you assume I'm not interested in helping people, because in fact I've been heavily involved in activities your blessed church would heartily approve of, I just don't need a pastor to tell me what's right or wrong. So you found God, good for you. Maybe it's instinct for you to be on your knees in front of someone, but not everyone is ready to flip from one extreme to the other. You'd help a lot more people if you stepped into the middle ground between whore and godly wife to educate people on the health risks, damage to future prospects and utter emotional devastation that sex work ultimately yields - without preaching the Gospel or pushing a false predator/victim scenario. Instead you sit on the sidelines and cream off the already disaffected souls that approach you, so you can boast about how God is working through you.
You're adamant that girls in the industry have issues, but I wasn't disputing that; What I was attacking was the one-dimensional notion of cause-and-effect that you are peddling. It's simplified, superficial, self-serving snake-oil that purposefully avoids the hard questions. It's dishonest to ignore the role immaturity, self-indulgence and lack of foresight play in the decision to become a sex worker. Since you're a Jesus freak, let me put it Christian terms: the magic word is TEMPTATION. You succumbed to it, your forgiveness is conditional on nothing but genuine repentance, yet still you seek to shift the blame. Do you think Mary Magdalene gave Jesus a sob story about her childhood?
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#195667 - 10/09/06 03:55 AM
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Bukkake Boy
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"The ones who AREN’T addicted to ... anti-depressants"
This is interesting because Shelley herself admits to being bi-polar and this attitude would seem to imply she's off her meds.
Agreed. I wonder if her kids are happy that their mom is going public about her former career, especially her teenage daughter who is the product of a trick with a john. I know that kid gets teased about that at school.
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#195670 - 10/09/06 10:17 AM
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#195671 - 10/09/06 12:03 PM
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HELL YEAH...she is a hot fucking whore...I just wonder Y We need to read a post about her feelings & opinions(they are both irrevelant)...LOL 
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#195673 - 10/09/06 05:16 PM
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#195674 - 10/09/06 05:28 PM
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thats funny shit monkey but too bad I didnt even fly outta vegas LoL...and I come browse the site every now and then to see if anything intersting is happening
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#195675 - 10/09/06 05:47 PM
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#195676 - 10/09/06 05:58 PM
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where did u ever get i was friends with her actualy i have heard of her but never met here lol
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#195679 - 10/10/06 11:21 PM
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Crissy had a nice 5 year contract with Medium Pimpin that would have ended in 2009. They have another year of content that they can use to update the site. Medium Pimpin was the only 'Crissy Moran' site that was actually paying her. The others, in particular, ClubCrissy.com, were not paying her anything.
Maybe she's already made plenty of money from her career, so that leaving porn won't hurt her financially.
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#195681 - 10/11/06 12:52 AM
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#195682 - 10/11/06 09:25 PM
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Interesting, not all of the whores for Jesus espouse Shelley's Black-and-White view. Luke interviews Becca Brat:Quote:
Becca: "I was very accepted in the Adult industry. I always felt welcomed. It's fun. I grew up sheltered. It was new and exciting. Anything that is truly bad is going to look exciting or you wouldn't get into it. It's like a drug. You try it for the first time and it's fun. By the thousandth time you've done it, you realize you can't stop doing it."
It's good to see that some can take a balanced view and move on with their lives.
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#195683 - 10/19/06 05:31 PM
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From her blog: Quote:
Sometimes our problems in life lead us in the wrong direction but you just have to be know that God loves every single one of us no matter how sinful we are. All you have to do is pray and ask him to forgive your sins and come into your heart. He can fulfill any void that is left inside. Let him live in YOU!
I know in my past blogs I have only explained a little about my past with God and also about my childhood. I have much more to tell about my life and how I ultimately ended up in porn but I need time to get it together. I started writing it about 2 months ago and still have a long way to go! Life has taken me through many struggles. I have been in many unhealthy relationships. One in particular was extremely abusive. I dated this man while I was in the business. Please do not email me and ask who it was because that will never be revealed. I respect his privacy and I have forgiven him. I feel a lot of my experiences come from not being nurtured properly as a child. I hope that those of you who are parents will realize how important your role is in your childs life. I do love my family and we are not on bad terms but I do wish we were a lot closer.
I am going through some stress with some people who run my website and getting bashed by pornographers. I thought I had more friends in the business than I really do. It seemed all fine until I mentioned I wanted to be a Christian. I just know I cannot do it anymore. I feel its time to turn away. Some people want to say it is because I am 30 years old but I was at the peak of my porn career. I made great money and more than I ever have in the time I have been in the business. It's not about the money people... it's about God convicting my heart. I am throwing away my income while my webmasters continue to run my website without me. I have no job right now as we speak. My webmaster calls my walk with God a "fairytale" and I only hope and pray that one day he will come to know him. I have compassion for all of you. I know a lot of you have been through some crazy experiences in your life that have hardened your hearts. I truly hope to see you one day in heaven.
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#195684 - 10/19/06 05:39 PM
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X3 Blog: Quote:
Porn Star Crissy Moran Leaves Industry
A few weeks ago Shelley Lubben, who works closely with us here at xxxchurch, contacted me about a girl named Crissy who had accepted Jesus and wanted to leave the porn industry. I emailed back and forth with Crissy and then got on the phone. Immediately, I could tell this girl was serious. Here is what she said to me in an email
These are the steps I have taken so far in my walk with God:
1. I haven't done any shoots in about a month (since the day my heart was convicted).
2. I left my ex boyfriend of 1 yr 8 months and moved into my own place. He and I have NO contact because I feel he is not the one for me. He was a good guy but not the one.
3. I have gone to church every Sunday and now attending Wednesday services as well.
4. I meet with the pastors wife for counseling 1-2 times a week.
5. I meet with Shelley Lubben once a week for counseling and talk to her on the phone just about everyday. I love her!
6. I have requested from my webmasters a copy of my contract telling them I just moved and I could not find it.
7. I have been reading my bible and tons of books about God.
8. I only have been listening to Christian music.
9. I have made TONS of christian friends. I have more friends now than I ever have in my life!
That is all i can really think of now but as you can see I am making a total life change. I am very happy about it and know that God wants to use me in big ways. I have been suicidal since my early 20's. I have been abused. I have been exposed to so much evil and have survived and am ready to hand all that I am over to the Lord to do with me as he wishes.
I am scared to stop my website.....
That was just a few weeks ago and she has now made the decision to leave. She is scared out of her mind. There are people that are profiting and relying on her site to pay their bills. She made the tough phone calls today and told them she was out. This does not mean the sites will come down right away or posibly at all. There are a lot of things that need to happen and a lot of things that we are going to need your help with to show Crissy that this is the right decision and that God's way is better.
Shelley, Crissy, and myself are going to talk on Monday about what is next. Crissy is thinking about nursing school, needs a good lawyer who is willing to go to bat for her and take control of her website back, and a list of other things. We hope to have a list of needs and ways that you all can support her later this week.
In the meantime, a lot of people are talking about her. She has been told she needs to see a psychologist and she is out of her mind. We do not believe that. We believe she has made the right decision and we want to support her in that decision. XXXchurch is not about pulling people out of porn who don't want to leave. We are so excited to help and encourage and support in any way people like Crissy and Donovan who decide to leave and need help with next steps. Crissy finding Christ is the best thing that she will ever do. Leaving porn seemed like the next step in her walk with Christ. Crissy has now made that step, lets support, love, and rally around her in this decision. Christ keeps no record of wrong. We all have a past. God is not concerned with that and we should not be either.
Encourage her in this decision...
http://www.myspace.com/yourfriendcrissy
Thanks be to my spiritual leader luke for these blogs.
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#195686 - 10/19/06 05:46 PM
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Wow she made 25 whole movies most of them lesbian and she wants to trumpet her "rehabilitation" to the world like everyone cares. Honestly I think she just wants to publish a book and ride shotgun on Oprah for one afternoon. If you check out the pics on her myspace you can still see that she's still a self-absorbed attention whore.
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#195687 - 10/19/06 06:19 PM
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When Shelley Lubben, XXXchurch, and others like them finally are able to convince one of the big dogs in the porn game to "see the light", then I'll take notice. Convincing a gal whose shot 25-75 movies to get out and offer her help in doing so can be seen as a noble, charitable act(although, they do try to rob us of our stroke fodder , but there are plenty more to take their place), but honestly, those girls are probably looking for a way out anyways. People would truly take notice of their efforts if they were able to change the minds of people like Jeff Steward, Jenna Jameson, Max Hardcore, whoever own Vivid or Wicked, ect. If they were able to convert the "Victimizers" of these "innocent, naive, good-hearted, never-skipped-Sunday-School" type of women, then they would really be doing something for people to be amazed by.
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#195688 - 10/19/06 06:25 PM
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I truly hope to see you one day in heaven.
It finishes like a suicide note.
Jesus Take Me - a poem by Crissy
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"Jesus take me"
"Jesus, Jesus just take me...
Take me to heaven with you"
I prayed this so many times
"What else do you want me to do?"
I just wanted to end this life
I was so overcome with defeat
I cried out to you in dispair
Tears streaming down my cheeks
I humbled myself before you
Lying on the floor crying
Trying hard to make it happen
But still you kept me from dying
Were you listening to my cries?
It seems all I have done is fail
I know I don't deserve your love
I know I deserve to burn in hell
You felt so far away from me
I wondered if you were still real
I felt if you really loved me
You'd let my broken heart heal
One day I lost all hope of you
And my heart began to turn cold
Then you sent to me a messenger
And your love began to unfold
You pulled me into your loving arms
Telling me to no longer fear
For fear is of the devil
And you have always been near
I am giving all the pain to you
Allowing you to heal my heart
Only you can make me whole again
And give me a brand new start
The pain was there to strengthen me
Because you loved me through it all
I now humble myself before you
And I am ready to answer your call
I love you more everyday Lord
I want to do your perfect will
So use my life as you desire God
Only you I want to fulfill
"Jesus, Jesus just take me...
Take my life and all that I am"
I pray this to you now dear God
I am ready to carry out your plan.
I love you so much God and I want you to work in me and use my life the way you seem fit. Thank you for rescuing me and continuing to heal my pain. I know I drifted away from you and know now that I am forgiven. I am all brand new again! Thank you for your mercy!
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#195689 - 10/19/06 06:58 PM
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When Shelley Lubben, XXXchurch, and others like them finally are able to convince one of the big dogs in the porn game to "see the light", then I'll take notice.
If you go to Shelley Lubben's myspace profile and click on some of the ex whore friends she has, they all have hilarious zealot christian 'finding jesus' stories. I would post some, but they are so long even burglar would be put to shame.
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#195692 - 10/19/06 07:31 PM
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Shelley Lubben is an unmitigated mess. "Got pregnant by client" and the whore puts the kid's pic up on myspace with that caption.
This is fucked up beyond words!
Next mission for Shelley Lubben: Saving Alyssa West
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#195693 - 10/19/06 07:34 PM
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I truly feel sorry for that kid. Isn't that something you would want to keep between you and your daughter, if you even find it necessary to tell her where she came from at all? I really think the kid could have done without knowing how she came into this crazy, mixed-up world her mother brought her into. Could you imagine what the kids at school would have treated her like if they knew this(which they probably did), especially during the Jr.High/Middle School years(quite possibly the most HELLISH years of school for those who are different)? I really have sympathy for this girl.
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#195694 - 10/19/06 08:00 PM
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I truly feel sorry for that kid.
The kid's been thoroughly indoctrinated:
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
GOD IS GOOD! AMEN,AMEN!
Current mood: GRATEFUL!
God is so awesome.
Three months ago I was going through some hard stuff. I was just being a witch. I hated myself and I was really starting to dislike God. I was thinking God was a mean God. I thought He was cruel to me and always angry with me. I thought God had turned His back on me. But really it was me who turned my back on God. I was always sad and crying and very angry. I was always doing something wrong and screwing things up. All my anger was towards God. I thought He was supposed to just say a magic word and everything would just be dandy. But He didn't and so I would become furious with God. After I would cool off I would be so mad with myself for being mad with God. My suffering was my own fault. God was right there, patiently waiting for me. I never looked to Him.
I had a lot of pride.
My attitude toward's my parent's was horrible. I was alway's getting into fights with my mom. Screaming and yelling at her. Finally my parent's decided we both needed a break from each other. So I stayed with a family friend for a little bit.
How good God can be even if you're horrible!
But even during my time of sadness and lonliness, God still provided for me! Can you believe it? God provided for someone who was angry with Him! Yup God is awesome. God sent me some amazing people in my life and friends that would be good for me and He restored my relationship with my parents. We get along better than ever!
God has been so faithful to me. After a while of not being able to take it on my own anymore I finally put my pride down and asked God to come back into my heart and my life. Also my mom shared with me an awesome bible verse.
James 1:2-4 "Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything."
Yeah, I had heard that bible verse many times before in my life, but never did I really understand it and realize it's importance. After reading that bible verse over and over, I realized that I had needed to put that verse into practice. I needed to give honor and praise to God no matter what circumstance I was in. I needed to put my trust in Him, not myself!
Now two months later, my life has been a JOY! Yeah sure, I still get those downs but it's not as bad as it was before. God has done so much for me these past months. I just recently took my GED test and thought I wasn't going to pass the math part and then would end up having to retake it. But God was faithful and came through. I just recieved my scores not too long ago and I passed! EVERYTHING! Of course I start bawling my face off because God so good. I am currently enrolled in a bible school now!
Iam nothing, He is ALL!
Also God provided me with an awesome job! I am now an employee at the Barnes&Noble cafe! The best part is I was only ten minutes into my interview when the manager hired me! Can you believe it? Once again God came through.
God has overflowed my heart with Joy and I am happier more than ever! Honestly. I have never been so thankful. God is amazing. God saved a "wretch" like me!
All of this because I started to put God's word into practice and put my faith in Him. I learned that through all your hard times you must count it joy and trust God. Yeah I know, easier said than done! Believe me, I KNOW! But this bible verse really got me through, along with many others of course. But this verse was THEE ONE!
The reason why I wrote this blog was because I wanted EVERYONE to KNOW how AWESOME God is. And that God NEVER turns His back on you! He is right there! Seek and you will find. Knock and He will answer! He's just right outside your door!
Now time for the credits!
Thank you to my mom and dad. You guys are amazing! Thank you for not giving up on me and supporting me in everything I do! I love you guys very much. Im honored to call you my parents!
The Kretsinger Family: You guys are awesome! Thank you all for being there for me. Thank you for always praying with me and for me. I love you all too! Iam so blessed to have you guys in my life!
And to all my friends: You guys are such a blessing to me! I love you all and thank you all for being the friends that you are!
And last but NOT LEAST, Jesus!: You are absolutely amazing. Thank you for ALWAYS loving me and NEVER giving up on me. You are and will always be the lover of my soul. Thank you for always pulling through even when I don't deserve it, which is ALL THE TIME! I LOVE YOU!
One more thing.
I also thank God for all the hard times. Without them I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't be able to have the compassion of Christ on others who have gone through hard times. If God said I could back in time and redue everything I'd say, "PSHH! No way Jose!"
This here forum doesn't reproduce all the random font changes. It's probably just a teen Myspace thing, but the cumulative effect makes her seem even crazier than her Mom.
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