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Sometimes our problems in life lead us in the wrong direction but you just have to be know that God loves every single one of us no matter how sinful we are. All you have to do is pray and ask him to forgive your sins and come into your heart. He can fulfill any void that is left inside. Let him live in YOU!

I know in my past blogs I have only explained a little about my past with God and also about my childhood. I have much more to tell about my life and how I ultimately ended up in porn but I need time to get it together. I started writing it about 2 months ago and still have a long way to go! Life has taken me through many struggles. I have been in many unhealthy relationships. One in particular was extremely abusive. I dated this man while I was in the business. Please do not email me and ask who it was because that will never be revealed. I respect his privacy and I have forgiven him. I feel a lot of my experiences come from not being nurtured properly as a child. I hope that those of you who are parents will realize how important your role is in your childs life. I do love my family and we are not on bad terms but I do wish we were a lot closer.

I am going through some stress with some people who run my website and getting bashed by pornographers. I thought I had more friends in the business than I really do. It seemed all fine until I mentioned I wanted to be a Christian. I just know I cannot do it anymore. I feel its time to turn away. Some people want to say it is because I am 30 years old but I was at the peak of my porn career. I made great money and more than I ever have in the time I have been in the business. It's not about the money people... it's about God convicting my heart. I am throwing away my income while my webmasters continue to run my website without me. I have no job right now as we speak. My webmaster calls my walk with God a "fairytale" and I only hope and pray that one day he will come to know him. I have compassion for all of you. I know a lot of you have been through some crazy experiences in your life that have hardened your hearts. I truly hope to see you one day in heaven.