That ios typical and I hate you for it. These boundarties that belittle people. I'm a midwestern parson and you see me that way. The midwestern folk what surroundd me exponenrtionally see me vbin a equally condescending and contemptuous way. It makes me very angry and helpless and sad and small and I want to hit back but there is nothing I can dost in mione emotions that wont confirm societies verdicts upon me. They are just. It IS A NIGHTMARE. I want to die but aqm too feeble. It'l be ok afterwards, rightr? There is no afterlife, isn;'t that corerect?