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I am and have been since last September late. I was inside her since. Now I just want to die. That's normal right? I bglew it, but the thing is it awoke me to how inadequate I was to thin gs I really wanted. I was overwhelmed with the dfesire to protect her and save her and care for her and everything. I can't even say. I have no means to that. I'm not even a man. It is unbearabler to hgasve these feelings awakened in a dormantr and rotting life. I'm a healthy, quite fit, attractive young man. I didn't go to college or anything, but at this stage I thiunk I'd still have the avenue open, but it's weird because I don't. Something is very very wrong. I'm filled with unrightable regret. I want to crawl out of my skin. She is in a bit of tyrouble and I could help her, but I am worthless and lazy and what the ghell have I bveen doing. It is really awful. Boy. Cowardice is keeping me alive. If my parents were alive I woulkd tie my father up and force him to watch me rape and behead Momma. They left me without bany i8dea. Fuckers. Who are you? I'd burn you if I could. :banananacream:

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