I think I am back....Back to the old Da Burglar of a year ago when I first joined, except now I actually may have a few "enemies" and some new, genuine hate of my own.

I am on my way back up to Mendocino, after spending a week in LA/Burbank, a good chunk of which was centered around (or involved with) my new/former porn friends.


Porn to me is now primarily morbid fascination and, much like car accidents or animals fighting/fucking at the zoo, you can't take your eyes off porn, and the images are BURNED into your brain...unless the porn invloves selected scenes/girls from a company like Tunacan Studios that has a new, fresh yet-not-too-raunchy take on the matter, Porn now generally sickens and disgusts me. We already have the thread in General Porn Talk regarding Cumfart Cocktails (number four, no less!) to use a basis for what nauseates these days...however, I reaffirmed and discovered some disgusting, new principles of perversion this past week.

Having met, talked with, dined with and hung out with porn chicks up close and personally, I can see that they are in fact Human beings, engaged in major Self deception and self-suppression of their conscience. I can see it in their eyes and hear it in their speech...they all like the "postives" (the MONEY, lazy-ass mway of life porn affords them, the ego-inflating adoration that "fans" seemingly offer)....but the price/cost is obvious and it is REAL.

Several chicks spoke of having "no life", that 90% of their co-stars are on major drugs (coke, Meth or even Heroin), or prescribed drugs: Oxycontin, vicodin...or, in the case of one chick who visited me in my room, totally zonked on Xanax at first when she showed up...the blank, dead calm stare and listless voice she had while she talked was actually kinda spooky, especially since it was TOTALLY opposite from the smiling, bubbly sex-loving-crazed chick that manifests herself on screen in her scenes, who can easily spout nasty dirtytalk of a quality that rivals the actual visual depictions in terms of stimulation.) Really, the contrast is stark and makes you wonder....

I saw evidence of depression...there was discussion of the unpleasantness of cumfarting scenes due to "leakage"...yes folks, the girls who ingest cumfarts may in fact be eating shit, literally. It is mind boggling ...a young woman, attractive and pretty (maybe not super model looks, but SOLID nonetheless), intelligent and capable of being or doing ANYTHING (a nurse, a teacher, real estate, paralegal, a pharmaceutical sales rep etc) actually CHOOSING to eat the Semen of male sex addicts/creeps from the rectum of another chick for 1800 bucks...it is mind boggling, that long after that $1800 has been spent on clothes, food, a car, dog food, cat food, etc, the movie scenes depicting one chick positioning her asshole over the mouth of another chick and relaxing her sphincter to allow the multiple cum loads from male creeps to fall into the other chick's mouth will continue to play and play and play over and over and over... to be continued....