Dude, with all seriousness, I can relate to your predicament. I'm no expert, but exercise and diet can go a long ways towards alleviating symptoms. I'm not sure this will help, and I don't meant to come across as trite, but happiness is a state of mind. Perhaps some mental "heavy lifting" is in order as well, rearrange priorities and perceptions but rest assured you're not the only one suffering such tribulations.
Assuming that you're a good and law-abiding dude who existing on your own "plane" amongst "regular" society, I encourage you to find that happy medium within your mind and flourish. However, if you're a sociopath with plans on hurting others I would suggest removing yourself from society to a more secure situation, medication, in-house treatment, etc. This wasn't all bullshit, was it? Better not be.