Sometimes I feel like I'm dead. I go days without leaving my house. Unless I'm going to work, I don't need to go out. I decide I need to save currency, and the best way to do that is not leave the house. Then I will not be tempted to buy anything. I keep the shades drawn, so no one comes to my door. I let the voice mail pick up the phone, and I simply check the messages later. If it's important, they will leave a message. So there are days where I am, essentially dead.

If I were to die, I would like proper warning. I need my affairs in order. Mainly, I need to discard my journals, which contain thoughts I don't want my family to know about. I also would ditch my porn, so my family would not know my sexual tastes. My hope is to outlive my entire family, so that when I die, the people who discard my things will be strangers that don't care about my journals or want to seek any insight in to me. They can have my porn if they wish.