"BUT....One last observation on Real, Genuine Intimacy and Porn (and how it can rob those who either perform in it or have relationships with porn performers.) I notice that some Porn Chicks Seemingly Climax during their porn scenes, some having multiple, INTENSE, Genuine orgasms. I find this to be anxiety-inducing: If I am in a relationship with a porn starlet, even if she does climax with me, I am not experiencing anything truly special or genuinely intimate, because thousands of MEN all around the world are witnessing her orgasm at the same time as I am trying to experience it with her in person...this is like having to share her with the rest of the world, and it is dishearteneing to think that I would never live up to her orgasmic experiences on a Porn Set, that everyone else is actually able to see/witness through her films. I feel hopelessly inadequate and insecure now...How did she become so sex crazed/orgasm obsessed? Intimacy counts for nothing, Love for nothing, it is all about those fleeting seconds of intense cerebral sexual activity in her brain during orgasm...my good heartedness, my concern for her well being, my exceptionally good hygiene, my ability to quote romantic excerpts from Keats or Shelley or Shakespeare, my ability to give footmassages and cook...none of this MATTERS, none of these earnest sincere expressions of intimacy, because for whatever reason, women under age 30 (and in particular, women who are in porn) are greedy and empty...they need 4, 5, 7, 12 or more dicks at a time...they want MANY men (or women, in the form of Piss) cumming on them at once because they cant be happy with one partner...they seem to only care about Orgasms (their own and mens' which they use to keep score), and Money, and Attention, and Pot, and...and...."


Last year a close friend of mine had an eighteen year old female heroin addict living with her, this is how she put it:

The intimacy is with the addiction, the addiction cause's selfishness, the selfishness removes all other values & causes criminal behaviour, self harm and harm to others.