Sorry but Im not looking to be in porn

but for some medical advice and experienced feed back
on something that I constantly fantasize and think about when I
masturbate but havent yet had the guts to do.

Im a very submissive 36 year old bi women and have done almost
everything sexually but scat.
Want to hear from other women who have taken it in their
mouth and swollowed/vomited or had it vomited in their face/mouth
whether its in your personal life or otherwise. Was it as much a rush doing it
as it is thinking about and seeing it? Did you get the panic
you experience from throating a dildo or cock for the first times.
Also want any medical advice about the risks. Any links to responsible
mediacl advice would be appreciated.