I had a nightmare that an exgirlfriend I still talk to sometimes said on the phone to me that she was flying out to Los Angeles to do pornography. I remember thinking in the dream that I had to sound calm and reasonable on the phone to convince her not to do it, but I couldn't stop my voice from trembling. "It's something I want to do. I know what I'm doing..." etc. she was saying, and I kept trying to say stuff like "Well, have you thought it through? This stuff is out there forever once you do it..." etc. but all I could manage was "PLEASE DON'T!!! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?!!! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!!!!! WHY?!!!! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!!!!" the entire time my nose is schnotty of sniffles and I smell warm tears. The more pleading and hysterical I get, the more determined she seems to go through with it. I still love her. I hear voices in the background of the call, rude male voices, and I am with horror convinced they are the pornographers. They are already with her. "I got to go," she says. Then I don't remember what.