Warning up front this won't be entertaining or deemed insightful reading, basically im just putting down anything that comes to mind for my own benefit or to let other people who find themselves in the same frame of mind (ac cream) that its ok. Wait ignore that last bit, dark day in my world when i start comparing myself to ac cream.





Well the reoccurring dreams of endless falling have returned which believe it or not isn't bad news considering what my other reoccurring dream is (sammura chi town gang bang house party some posters might remember the full story but i don't want to get into it otherwise , well you know). They say the two most common reoccurring dreams are the feeling of falling and your teeth falling out, i always question myself on knowing that but never actually finding out what either represent, that info must of followed wherever i heard it to begin with.

Eva angelina makes me laugh, i own lil ceases cd, both disturbing, i wonder if luke wishes he used a disclaimer back in the lukeford.com days, it must be painful to have a b grade porn star who is willing to take shots on the grill for little money take your entire bank roll on a story nobody but her read. Im sure this lingers n the dark part of lukes mind to this day, his hard earned money gone to a girl who probably blew it in a month.

lacie heart is a new vivid girl, amazing how similar she looks to that crazy scottish whore who did all that nasty shit like max stuff, piss mops and shit.




I wonder what sammura is thinking as she reads this sentence right now. I hope shes touching herself. (sits for a while). I just realized that i actually mean that and i think its because i draw strength from her getting off on when shes thinks im down. hmmmmmmm. I get joy from sammuras joy even if its based on negativity. wow. (head tilt slight should shrug)


I wonder how many random people have told serena williams that shes ugly and doesn't have a feminine bone in her body to her face , something that only serena and that person know about and if the whole confident in her appearance is just an act and those words from a person she will never see again still ring deep. Not that ive ever meet serena or anything


Im certain phil spector did it, but why?. I think she wanted to leave, i know he had issues with that when he held the ramones hostage for a week, but to go as far as shooting, im getting a blinding image of tantas wife for some reason, i wonder why i connect her with phil spector, now im getting scenes from the movie blow with johnny depp, the hairdresser scene , coke, weed, pee wee herman, tantas wife and phil spector.



I have had ac creams image pop up in my head twice in day to day life, im not concerned but if it starts happening more frequently i will be

You know if i was a regular drug user or heavy drinker i could rationalize these thoughts and dreams but the fact i haven't taken any drugs (not even weed) in the good part of a year or gotten drunk in 6 months its a tad worrying.



Amazing to know that jessica simpson has at least 30 million and teagan pressley has around 30 grand, yet i can name at least two of teagans movies and i can name only one of jessicas songs, appearance wise they rank about the same, just strange both shared the same dream originally (fame) and how thin the path into it can be. Cindy crawford.



I wonder if corina taylor has found a male role model for her baby. God im an asshole, seriously. im laughing because i know she hasn't, its not the kids fault, but it will be when he is old enough to walk and talk.


Life is easier when theres someone to blame