All that was said at Cytherea's KSEX show basically just tells me that I was right a year or so ago when they tried to convince me they were not using recreational drugs. Not that I really care either way if they did or didn't. All I was doing was replying to a topic on the message board. It just boggled me they went out of their way to call me and clarify that. It's fine though.

I'm not around for sympathy, but people talk to me and against me with my views on recreational drugs as if I know nothing about them and its effects on people and how it tears people apart. So sharing my experience with my sister was showing people that I'm not this fricken chick in porn coming from a perfect goody family totally against drugs. I think we all experience it from many angles at some point in life.

And if I really wanted a bunch of attention from press then I'd make press releases about every step I take and every thing I do like a lot of people do. And you dont see me doing that. I never once advertised my website like most girls do. I dont need avn awards or nominations. My goal in this industry is not a piece of glass, metal or plastic, whatever it is.

Certainly for a while being in this industry I enjoyed everything I involved myself in. I didn't force myself to do anal cuz I needed the money, i tried it a handful of times and soon realized it wasn't for me for various reasons. You didn't see me force myself to do in desperate need of the green backs. You never saw me going to parties, networking trying to become a contract girl cuz I know better than to ever think Id have that actual potential.

If I really wanted to be famous for being a porn whore then I would have made different paths of approaching this industry like Cytherea did. Good for her. Whatever works. What I've always been concerned about is having my fun and going about life as far as I can and make something of myself other than just being some porn chick who fucks on film for money.

One may think there's respect and actual people in this industry that care for their co-workers n such but the bottomline is that its a huge pool of competition. There is no respect. Everyone worries about themselves. Its that kind of way. Most directors don't give a shit if a girl is fucking with a yeast infection, as long as her test says shes clean and can get through the scene without the other talent complaining or trying to stop the filming.

The only reason why Cytherea would assume that I I'm hungry for press is because Gene Ross and fellow others of Adultfyi.com copy and paste everything thats posted on this message board. If they didn't do that, then it wouldn't be amongst all the press sites. That goes for Luke Ford too.

The funny part of all this is everything that I've made claims about other people are in all basis of fact. Not personal attacks. But because people I guess, I'm assuming feel an amount of guilt for their past decision making take it as a personal attack and then return the gesture with something very irrational and truly a personal attack with no valid fact. But its fine either way, at least I know I'm not stooping to a level of personally throwing personal assumptions into peoples faces. I only state my opinions without getting personal and degrading another and stating factual information that well, has already been confirmed.

I react rather calmly with majority of my post unless I'm being silly but a lot of you people go too far, get so worked up and defensive so easily it makes me wonder what the hell is going on in your noggin to make you have to react this way. Is it guilt? What the hell is it? Offended by what I say? And why?

I do know that whether you promote yourself constnatly or lay low like I do, you'll always get shit talked. You can be totally honest and blunt like I tend to be or remain quiet on the sidelines like some girls, you still get shit talk and horrible criticism for just being you. You have one lousy movie out of dozens and suddenly you're awful to the viewers. It's a tough industry and well many women are still gonna do it. Beat me down all you want in any way you guys want to but you're not gonna get what you really want.

I'll contribute to this board as I wish. I'll continue to answer any questions that happen to come my way. I will engage in the many topics and conversations that take place at my own risk, so long as Tony Malice and Jeff Steward allows me to do so. And I will always continue to be open, honest and pridefully blunt about anything I talk about without shame. Whether there's negative or positive feedback given in return. Take it or leave it.

THanks