Actually there's no real excuse for drug using. If you're in that much pain and misery just fucking kill yourself and get over it so the pain don't get worse and you're not wasting everyone elses time feeling sorry for oneself. ARGH

I would rather someone in pain and feeling sorry for itself to come to me as a friend needing to talk, or go to someone... getting out and having clean fun and clean friends is usually a great remedy to pain and depression. I did it.