Thanks for the support guys... I was waiting for a huge rush of insults LOL. My boyfriend was in a dirty business hence why I was always doing drugs. I was letting them take over my life and it was stupid. I needed to grasp ahold of my own life and take control again. It's been a slow move, but I'm getting there. Porn has been my life since I was 18 and it's only spit me out once. And that was my own choice... not the choice of everyone else. I missed doing scenes. I missed the people. I missed my friends that I stopped talking to because my boyfriend didn't like them. I let a stupid boy control every aspect of my life because I was lonely. It isn't going to happen again. Being in that relationship taught me so much about myself. I learned huge life lessons being with him. I was not a good person. I was a good person before him... and I will be a good person again... now that the blanket's lifted from my eyes! Thanks guys!