I've jerked off so much in the last two days that nothing comes out and my asshole hurts. And just a few moments ago I was playing with myself again over at gaggingwhores.com when I seemed to havve a moment of clarity. I suddenly stepped outside myself and was forced to look and it all seemed so absurd and ugly and beyond the pale. I actually said outloud "What the fuck am I doing?! What the fuck are they doing?!! Her head is UPSIDEDOWN! She can't breathe! It's abuse! It's Ugly! OH GOD!!!! WHY?!! whywhywhywhywhywhywhYWHYWHYWHYWHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Then the downstairs neighbors tromped up the stairs and banged on the door and asked all alarmed "Are you okay? Do you need help?" and I goes "No. I'm okay. I watching a ball game and got a little carried away. Sorry bout that." and they stomped off. But back to the matter at hand: I just can't do this anymore- it's killing my soul. Seeing women getting roughed up and humiliated and abused is exciting and all to watch, but people it's just got to stop. No good will come of it. I can't do it anymore, so none of you can do it anymore either. Either straighten up and fly right or I'm going to take my one-man crusade to the ranch in Texas and turn a national spotlight on all this sickness. I may even find the Lord like that Longshot feller, I don't know.