Toe... It's cool. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Mandy... how was I supposed to call you when I didn't have my phone? I didn't have your number. It was in my phone. All I know is that I got REALLY drunk and ended up losing a whole lotta shit at the bar that night... including my own house keys. I had to call and wake my mom up at 3am to come and let me in the house. As far as everything goes, I think I'm going to stay off the message boards. I thought I'd be cool and honest and share some of my personal life with my fans... but to be judged is another story. I've flaked on 2 shoots in my career. This being the second. As Mandy has done this for 4 years... I'm on 3 years. So 2 flakes in 3 years is pretty good if you ask me. My trip to Wisconsin was a nice vacation though it ended up turning into a mess on here.

The only reason rumors are flying rampant about me is probably mainly from the whole Me & Missy thing. I don't think it should so much matter what goes on in our personal lives. You guys don't come on here and start talking about your lives... This has just become rediculous. People you talk to and you think you can be cool with as a fan relationship turn their backs on you in a second. Atleast I've been honest with you guys from the start. If you're going to let a tiff between A FRIEND OF MINE and ME be the decision maker in whether or not you watch me... let it. I'm not angry in any way. I'm going to continue to do rawking scenes for you guys because I know that you enjoy watching me. I'm turned on knowing that. That's why I do what I do.

I'm young... I'm gonna fuck up... I'm going to try drugs... I'm gonna be ME! Let me make mistakes and fuck up. Atleast then I'll figure out for myself what's going on. I'm not headed up any bad hill. I just came home to celebrate my birthday. When I go back to Cali... it's back to work.

It was fun being on the boards but I just don't think I'm going to be coming back too often. It's just gotten to a point where I don't care anymore. Whether what's being said is gossip or truth. And Jeff... the comments about losing me to drugs are REALLY pissing me off. Later everyone