I've been in a program allied to the 12 steps, on and off for years. I'll skip talking about my personal demons. It would just look like I'm shifting blame. But I got to amends, which is where this post comes in.

I've been channeling my suppressed rage through this board. The results have not been pleasant or pretty. Regardless of what I think of you personally, and your own issues, you didn't deserve the abuse I dumped on you here.

There are times, when we humans have to be nasty to our fellow man, but none of those situations apply to you guys, and it's not like you sought to cause trouble for me.

Anyway I'm not going to chase you guys down on the internet or in real life, it would be creepy, so I will apologize here, where I made my comments.

Among my low points was insulting BI's family, a place where I should not have gone. As far as Christian X goes, nope, definitely don't want to be you, but you've made your own decisions and don't need to be made fun of for them since you've been honest about who you are.

I don't know why Ryan and Windsock ever pissed me off so much, but nothing good ever came from the comments I made about you two. Though Windsock, I'd appreciate it if for once, you didn't troll this thread.

If anyone who was actually friends, or related to the real Jake reads this, I'm sorry if I caused you any pain when you saw his name pop up again. He was obviously a deeply troubled and addicted guy who made some really bad life choices. I should have not dragged his name through here, as a tool for trolling BI.

Finally, this post should not be looked at, as an attempt by this internet troll to tell others how to act and how to post. Your decisions, are obviously your own. So regardless of any comments made here, I'm not going to keep the thread going.

Best wishes

You already took the 1-step program...off the bridge in LB. Quit whining. You're only in hell because you and Marty del Taco tried to invent armpit fucking as a porn niche.

Jake Malone was a monster. I'm glad his last moments were tinged with acute despair, panic, and self loathing. He deserved to die that way.

You have given me so many laughs with your posts, nothing to be ashamed of. Thanks for the laughs.

Come on its porn, nothing is off limits between consenting adults.