New Interview with me and PinkPussy Magazine
We had heard you had left the business, moved to Europe, got married and had a child. Is this true? Can you expound on this?
You are absolutely right. I did leave the business move to Europe, got ENGAGED, and had a beautiful baby. I had to come back for a few months to get my impending dual U.S./European citizenship affairs in order. So why not.
Are you here in the States or still in Europe?
Me and my family are summering here in L.A. until August when we return to Spain.
How did you become involved with Mike Hancock of Hancock Studios?
They contacted me, said they were big fans of my work, they seemed really nice and professional and ran a really safe all-condom set so I said let's do it.
How did you come to the decision to do a bisexual film?
Multi-thousands of dollars were thrown my way. Put it this way, suppose you were a professional bank robber and let's be honest, as far as jobs go, being a male porn star is essentially very much akin to stealing money from a bank. And imagine if every day you robbed the bank (did regular straight scenes) and you left a giant sack of money in the bank everyday because it was in a pink bag and you didn't want people to watch you getaway with all that massive extra loot just because it was in a pink bag and those poor, pathetic, jealous fucks (pornbloggers) who watch you rob the bank everyday and wish they could would perhaps snicker at your pink bag. After I first retired I thought back on all that extra loot in that pink bag and said, "you know what? Fuck it. If they wanna call me gay. The punk rocker rebel in me says, no I'm not gay but I'll show you fucking gay you fucking haters. I'll do the bi and tranny scenes and I'll make thousands and thousands of extra dollars at it AND get all expense paid trips to Buenos Aires, Argentina, I decided to finally steal that big, pink bag and let them snicker, because I can't hear them over counting my money and really, why care what they think? And you know what the sweetest revenge was? It didn't affect my hiring one bit. And in the one case where it did I shit-canned the former employer right away and went on working with a full schedule, haha.
Have you done movies with she-males? What studio? What films? How many? When?
Yes, I have and that's for me to know and you to find out, haha. But EVERY scene of this nature that I have done has been all condom.
What do you think the reaction will be from the adult industry? How will you handle that?
Gee, do you mean do I care what druggie hookers and closet case sleazoid porn producers who all secretly do the same thing or dream of doing the same thing or equally perverted shit think of me? How can I possibly sleep at night knowing these bastions of integrity and morality (NOT) will be shocked? I hope my sarcasm is clear here. Here's a secret for you: they are only shocked by my honesty which simultaneously enrages and eludes them.
What are your plans for the next three years? I am officially retired now. I've realised that I've been waiting to be a father my whole life. It's become my raison d'etre. I have finally found in my newborn the missing emotional puzzle piece to complete the empty space in my jigsaw, gone is that aching in my soul that I have always felt since childhood.
At the end of your career, what do hope people will say about you? That I was THE Punk Rock Pornstar. 100% rebel. 100% real. The Kurt Cobain of porn. Uncompromising in my beliefs, unified in word and deed and unyielding in commitment to piss off the frat-boy pornblogger haters. To wit: in an industry full of poseurs and would-be bad boys, it was me, over all others, who was continually crowned as THE "enfant terrible" of them all. And despite their worst efforst and all the lies of all the haters, I not only got to travel the U.S and the world (like New York, Las Vegas, Miami, Puerto Rico, St. Maartens, Argentina, etc, I won not one, not two, but THREE AVN awards (and too many nominations to count), I directed, wrote, starred, soundtracked, and edited eight awesomely hot, full-length feature movies that were well received by AVN magazine and sold well all over the globe. Not too mention over 1400 hot sex scenes with over eleven hundred women, I know I made my mark on porn and my fans who write me from all over the world. Not too bad a legacy to leave behind for a scant six years of my thirties, haha.
Why do you think people are accepting of a bisexual female but not as accepting of a bisexual
male? Homophobia derived from latent self-hatred of their own secret desires.
To date, what has been your favorite scene to do? Why? Your favorite sex act to do on film?
My favorite scene was one of my last for
www.fuckedandbound.com because that girl Chanta who runs the site and ties up the girls nearly severely injured a girl on set by having her neck tied too tight and her hands tied behind her back (all the while the model complaining she'd lost feeling in her hands to which the un-caring Chanta just shrugged it off.) After the scene, we were waiting for the cab to take us back to the airport (we were shooting in Oakland) and suddenly there was a gang shoot-out with about a dozen shots fired about a half a block right from where we were waiting. All of these factors plus the fact that I found out that for her other site, Chanta was shooting shady guys from San Francisco she got cheap off Craigs List and not only was she shooting them having sex (with NO current industry standard STD test) with the same chick models everybody else shoots with, but she was also having these un-tested low-rent amateur dudes from San Francisco ejaculate on the same set pieces she shoots her scenes with performers who ARE tested. Very risky stuff. This is my favorite scene beacuse it was one of my last and it proved to me what I always knew, I may have worked in this industry and taken full advantage of all of its perks, but there is a rampant misgogyny, a deep underlying hatred for women, an attitude I just don't share, never did, never will. I may have worked here but I was never one of them, and this was a deliberate decision on my part. I had my fun, the industry was right for me once, but it has changed so much and so have I and I'm ready to finally move on. Wish me luck...
KURT LOCKWOOD