Here's the story of Tracy Trix:
About four years ago when I was dancing a few nights at Bobs she had come in there with a 'friend' of hers who was Brian Uptgraph (sp?) you know the guy who went around the conventions with a bag of candy, the one that ended up in prison.
They spoke of how she was his slave. She would talk the talk of how great it was and how she loved it. I saw in her eyes and tone of voice that it was fake. He was telling me how he thought it'd be great if she danced at Bobs and thought she'd like it. It didn't seem like she had much of a choice. She did comment on not being so sure about it. Was too scared and shy.
So I took it upon the opportunity of him letting her go from the chain he had to her neck to "show her around the club" and told her basically if she wanted to do this, give me a call, if she was interested in the industry to give me a call. I told her she should find a way to lose contact with that crazy psycho Brian. She said she wanted to.
She did talk about how she had lived in a sober living home for quite some time until she met this guy. I didn't get a full story because the longer we took the nervous I felt thinking he had his eyes on us. So I let her go. I told her to call me.
I never heard from her but one email and one other encounter in the club with another friend of hers who actually seemed somewhat normal. I got to talk to her briefly before they had to leave right away but she did say that she went through hell to get away from Brian but she made it and has been inseperable with this guy (she was with that night) who has been wonderful to her. SHe said she was in the works of a website and doing her own thing after doing a few scenes here and there. Although did mention the idea of liking to be more in control with everything she does.
So hence the website. Since then, I have never been able to get through to her via email or phone. Phone number no longer in service. Tracy did discuss to me her battles with drugs in the past and cutting issues. At the time she did me ntion getting through the cutting tendencies and said she struggled with her cravings every so often more so when stressed out. Regardless of her demons she was a very bright sweet person. Down to earth and not pornofied from the biz.
Since I haven't heard a word and do wonder from time to time where she may be. Last I knew she lived somewhere in the SFV but the SFV is huge so who knows where.
Perhaps lets not think too much of it and just assume that she has moved on. To better and bigger things. I hope.
