the weight lifting builds muscle and keeps my chest toned.muscle burns fat.toned chest makes me look like less of a fat fuck.but thanks for the advice.

i had to cancel another appointment with my new therapist today,yesterday,because of how bad i feel.finding out how much of a slut my former therapist is,was like in that movie sonny(sp?).the movie about a jiggalo(the non homo kind) staying over with some girl he fucked and finding out shes a cough syrup junkie(she had cases of the shit).it completley shattered his state of mind right then with disillusionment.

whatever her plans for me were,its clear i wasnt good enough in the first place and still am not.if someone doesnt like you the way you are,then they dont like you enough.even that time she said i was so young and virile after i had left,and she was gloating to herself about wanting to take it off with me,she had said"theyre gonna be lining up for him,i just have to have him first."clearly her husband leaving her really fucked her up or she was already like that.i dont think women change all of a sudden in their 40s.

not to mention the fact about her almost booking dr chub for her radio show she used to have and not telling me.you think if it was innocent and just for her show she wouldve told me about it way earlier since we were reading his book.i hope hes everything hes lead you to believe he is from his book.but im guessing youre gonna get slapped in the face with reality like i was.

i like the fact that the fat fuck you tried to pawn me off on and that fucks you,is way fatter than i am also.you can hear this porker walk into the fucking room.the fucking walls literally shake and sound like theyre going to fall in or someshit.i hope you enjoy playing with dr nicks dick.it didnt work out with despina#1 so maybe itll work with #2.eat a bag of dicks.

also i know i need to calm down with this shit already.i know the only way to get over a cunt is more cunts.and i should be discussing this with my therapist but the old office was compromised due to fat boy being just 6 feet away in the next office.but my therapist is moving,so i guess now i can be more open with her.