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I for one prefer to hope for the best in people, because the world is a much better place to live in if you think that way. Sure, I'm let down a lot of the time, but sometimes I'm not, and that's when having some faith in humanity really pays off.

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and the other times when it doesnt pay off? you totally discount the other side of the equation. i guess there has to be a breaking point where your opinion changes to the other side. i can name 20 girls right now who have disappearing in a cloud of marijuana, cocaine, speed, or heroin smoke. call me a glass is half empty kind of guy. holly you do know that this girl is a mother, correct? that makes the fact that she cant get clean doubly evil/sad in my opinion.

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There just is NOT enough treatment availability in this country, period. If you are not wealthy, it is very hard to get the type of treatment someone such as this chick Sophia requires. Even if you have health insurance, most plans only cover the bare minimum of treatment, if you want to do it right, you have to pay out of your own pocket. Someone who is already spending every dime to stay high and maintain is fucked...

But here again, life is just a crapshoot, some are lucky (like me) and some are not. And YES, in the context of life in general, and within this subject in particular, I AM very lucky, even though I was fucked at birth physically. I have been in pain since I was a baby, I have had general anesthesia dozens of times, and have been on (and off, and on...and on...and off...) the "big guns" of pain medications all my life. And of course, I drink, and enjoy other things from time to time....and I have never really had any problem getting off and staying off any of it when I absolutely needed to. Some would term this functional addiction, or pseudo-addiction. I dont, I know whaqt my situation is and if I had to or wanted to I could do without any chemicals forever. But that's because, since I was a little kid, I never could bullshit myself, I always had reality facing me in the face every day. The linchpin of addiction is twofold: ESCAPE reality (or alter it in the brain), AND bullshitting oneself into thinking any number of falsehoods. What chemicals I do now simply are what I WANT to do, because I can and because, having been lucky to survive this long and being in pain all the time, I'd be fucking nuts NOT to be on something most of the time.

Life is just not fair...Sophia needs about 6 months of solitude in a log cabin in Vermont...